English: The most important ... never let it go! CHAPTER 3

You waited long .. but here it is finally!!!! And longer than the chapters before .. and with even some pictures and nice new banner ^.~ Hahahaha I hope minna won't get mad at me what I do to our boys .. everything is just for the drama neeeee~!!!! So well now I can start to write chapter 4 .. the planned last chapter .. but there is an epilogue coming afterwards ne... but unfortunately won't have time this weekend. My Arashi friend will visit me this weekend .. and we'll do loooooooooooots of fangirl stuff... so no time to continue writing .. but after that I'll promise I'll give my best to present you the final chapter soon!!!

Jaaaaa now ... here comes chapter 3 (And I'm going off to watch TRUTH PV NOW *nyahahahhahahahaa*):

Desperation was the only thing that Sho felt at the moment. Pure desperation which took away all of his strength and made him unable to do anything else than to stare at the spot where Ohno was still lying motionless.Just now he had spoken to him and now…
While Sho was still in a state of shock the driver of the car managed to get out of his vehicle. In Panic he ran to Ohno, then back to his car to search for his mobile phone in his bag. His fingers were shaking when he dialed the 911 and with a frantic voice he finally called for an ambulance.

The sky of Tokyo was all cloudy by now; from a distance you could hear a faint grumble. Shos eyes were still staring at Arashis Leader. But as the first raindrop fell down on his hand, he finally was freed out of his state of shock. Shortly he looked down at the small water drop.

‚The first rule when an accident happens: keep calm’. The words of his driving instructor during the first aid course suddenly echoed in his head. He closed his eyes and took one/two deep breaths till his pulse calmed down again. At last he jumped up, ran as fast as he could to Ohno and kneeled down besides him. The first thing that he caught side of was a big gash on the abdomen of the elder one which bled briskly.

‘I have to stop the bleeding!‘ As soon as that thought came to his mind, he already took off his jacket and pressed it as strong as he could on the wound. In the meanwhile the driver had finished the emergency call and rushed over to Sho.
“Oh god, oh god, I’m so sorry I couldn’t .. anymore…”
“How long will it take for the ambulance to arrive?!” Shos eyes flashed at him. “Around … 20 minutes .. they said“, answered the man falteringly.
‘So long!’ Sho looked worriedly at Riida whose condition worsened more and more, because his wound just didn’t want to stop bleeding. Sweat was Ohnos his forehead, he groaned and cramped more often now because of his pain. ‚If the ambulance don’t arrive soon then…’
„You! Press this as strong as you can on the wound please! The bleeding has to be stopped! Can you please do that?” First the man was looking at him in surprise, but after a few seconds he kneeled down and took over that task. Sho however turned to Riidas face now. He bent over him and checked his breathing. “Too weak!” those words came over his lips with deep anxiety. Shocked the driver looked up to him. “Will he make it until the ambulance arrives?” Sho didn’t really know an answer to that question, but still the words “I won’t let him die here!” came over his lips decisively. While he carefully bent Ohnos head a little bit he caught himself stroking gently over the elder ones cheek with his thumb. ‘It’s so soft and… no, there is no time for that!’ He opened Riidas mouth a bit and moved his head closer to the elder ones. But then for a short moment he stopped. The sight of Ohnos lips and the thought that he will touch them now with his own made his heart beat faster. However he wasn’t allowed to think about that, as the elder one was still fighting for his life. Slowly and carefully Sho placed his lips on Ohnos. ‘They are as soft as I had imagined’, was the thought that popped up in his mind automatically and his heart began to beat wildly. He knew himself that this was absurd in such a moment, but he just couldn’t do anything against it. His heart was just showing him once again how much he felt for the person whose life he tried to save right now.

When he finally let his breath into the mouth of the other, he noticed how Ohnos body shivered under him. However those shivers were not because of Sho, but because of the pain that shot through the body of the elder one. Sho knew, he wasn’t allowed to stop with the mouth-to-mouth-resuscitation anymore; he had to continue until the ambulance arrives, otherwise not only Riidas breathing would stop but also his heartbeat. If he could only give Oh-chan a bit of his wild beating heart…

Shos relief was boundless when finally the ambulance arrived with siren wailing and blue light flashing. Two emergency doctors came running to them with a litter and doctor’s cases. Only when the doctors where kneeling down to the injured one, the younger Arashi member let up on Ohno. Worried he watched them how they took care of Riida, how they did emergency treating and finally put him carefully on the litter to bring him to the ambulance. Sho ran besides them and asked if he was allowed to drive with them to the hospital. “You are a relative right? Ok fine, but please sit at the front!” was the hasty answer from one of the doctors while they stowed the litter in the car. Sho wasn’t really happy about the fact that he wasn’t able to sit besides Ohno at the back of the ambulance but at least he was able to come with them to the hospital. He took a last worried peek at Ohno, then he hurried to the passenger seat and the ambulance took off with loud siren wailing.

The drive seemed like an eternity for Sho. He was holding his hands tightly and just stared out of the window. The sky was now enlightened with dazzling thunderbolts and loud grumbling thunders were echoing through the streets. The rain had been getting worse and pattered against the car.
‘The sky is crying’ that was Shos thought at the sight of the many water drops that were hitting against the window. He tightened the grip of his hands until his knuckles were shining white under his skin.

As soon as the car had stopped in front of the hospital, Sho jumped out and hurried to the back to be at Ohnos side again. The doctors discharged the litter out of the vehicle and Sho reached for Riidas hand. It almost broke his heart when he noticed how cold and lifeless it had become by this time. A couple of hours ago that hand was still drawing the most beautiful pictures and now…
His concern grew again to a considerable degree and he swore himself that he would hold on to Ohnos hand as long as he could! They hurried down the long wide corridors now, the doctors called out instructions to some nurses that then also began to move. However Shos eyes were fixed on Ohno, whose face had frightfully lost its colour.
„Ohno-kun! Listen, you have to hang on! You have to keep up!  You just have to hang on, did you hear me?!” He noticed the despair that was reflecting in his own voice. Finally the operating room appeared in front of them. One of the nurses came to Sho and touched his arm to hinder him going any further. He realized how Ohnos hand slithered from his own. He didn’t want to let go, but there was no other way. The only thing that he could do was looking after the doctors that vanished into the operation room.

With a soft and calming voice, the nurse turned now towards him. “I’m really sorry, but you have to wait here now. Only the doctors are allowed to go into the operation room. But please don’t worry; the doctors will give their best to save your friend. Please trust them!” Sho could only nod shortly while his eyes were still staring at the door of the operation room. He noticed that the nurse was rummaging around her coat and after that she was holding out a moist cloth towards him. Slowly his gaze wandered to her smiling face. “Here, for your hands.”
The sudden feeling of sickness overcame him, when he looked down on his hands, which were dyed red from Ohnos blood and they began to shiver on their own at this moment. However the nurse noticed it immediately. She took his elbow and directed him slowly to the seats which were situated at the back. Hesitantly he sat down, but he couldn’t stop staring at the red of his hands. Tenderly the nurse took his right hand and wiped it with the cloths. The same she did with his left hand and soon all the signs of blood was gone. “Are you feeling better now?” she asked with a smile on her face. Sho took a deep breath and nodded at last. “Thank you very much.” A tired smile flashed over his face. “I wanted to give you this here. Those are your friend’s belongings. Don’t worry, I only give them to you so that they won’t get lost. Because your friend surely wants to get them back.” Her face radiated so much kindness. She gave him the little pouch, which he accepted thankfully.
“I have to go back to my ward now, please don’t worry too much. Your friend is in good hands!” Gently she stroked his upper arm before she turned around and left.

Now Sho was all alone at the corridor, in front of the big door where the red operation sign was shining above.
‘No, I cannot sit here all alone! Otherwise I’m going crazy! I have to call the others … and Ohnos family also!’
Now he felt a lump in his throat. Hesitantly he took out his mobile to make his first call.
“Yes hello?“ he heard the sleepy voice of Jun. Sho knew, he first should have called Ohnos mother, but the thought that he had to tell her that because of him her son was… no he couldn’t summon the courage to do so. If there was someone that could keep a cool head and knew what had to be done then it was Jun; Sho was sure about that.
“Jun? Here Sho…” he couldn’t hide the shiver in his voice. And of course Jun knew exactly that something wasn’t right. “What happened?” he asked worriedly and much more awake than before.
“Ohno-kun… there was an accident… he is… can you please tell the others about it?... and please come to the hospital in Shibuya.” He barely managed to say those sentences.
It took a while till Jun rose his voice again. “Ok, I’ll tell them and Ohnos family also.” There was a short break. “Sho, how bad is it?” Arashis rapper could hear the concern in the other ones voice and this gave him a lump in his throat. “I… I don’t know.” Cruelly the words came over his lips and again there was silence. “I understand. We’ll come as fast as we can!” and with that Jun hang up.

Sho was relieved that he didn’t have to confront Ohnos family for the time being and that Jun would take over that task. Slowly he put his mobile phone back in his pocket and looked up at door of the operation room. The sign above was still shining warningly red. It was quiet. Too quiet.
He noticed how his thoughts wanted to run off the track again. But then he realized that he was still holding that little pouch with Ohnos belonging in his hands which he got from the nurse. Carefully he opened it and emptied the contents on his lap. A notebook and a necklace turned up: Ohnos necklace with the silver “S” pendant. It was Ohnos rarest jewel. He always wore it; even during photo-shootings he always had it around his neck. Sho took it with his left hand and embraced it as strong as he could. He would hold on to this necklace untill he could give it back to the older one.
Sadness overcame him once again, but he was relieved that no tears turned up.
His gaze wandered to the small notebook now. Sho lifted it up and opened the first page. There was one of those typical comic strips which Ohno had always drawn. Seeing those made him smile for a while. On the next few pages the comic strip continued and Sho was reading it interestingly. But then it suddenly stopped; the next few pages were blank. Had Ohno not been able to finish it? He turned over; still some more blank pages, but then he stopped. At the back there were some new drawings which made him freeze. In disbelieve and with an aching heart he looked at one drawing after the other. There were five, ten, fifteen; there were so many and all had the same motive:

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