The most important... never let it go! Chapter 5

Finally finally ... here it is .. the long awaited chapter 5! Which is NOT the last chapter noooo .. I lied XDDD

But I really wanted to end it with chapter 5, demo I just have too many ideas and so I'm writing too much *LOL* So I decided to forget the idea with 5 chapters .. hahaha .. there will be more. Still hope chapter 6 will be the last but ... as I don't know .. I keep my mouth shut now XDD Will just tell you when I post the real last chapter XDD So have fun with the next chapter!

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CHAPTER 5

Aiba Masaki sat, his hands rubbing nervously, at the side of the hospital bed in which Sho was lying, still unconscious. Except for the faint dropping of the drip which was connected with the right hand of the rapper, there was silence in the room. Aiba felt awkward, helpless and worried. Every few seconds his look went from Shos face up to the clock hanging on the wall, then over to the big window, where he could spot the distant blinking of the skyscraper and the patter of the raindrops.

He felt how tiredness came slowly over him, but his feelings were too much in an uproar, that he just couldn’t think about sleep. And he had a task to fulfil now after all: to stay at Shos side and to be there for him.

Aiba could only partly imagine how the older one must feel. To see, how Leader got hit by a car, then to fear for his life, to learn that he had feelings for him and that he might also reciprocated them. What a terrible pain must that all cause? He just couldn’t imagine. He only knew that he wanted to help Sho to get through that terrible time.

When his gaze went back to the face of the senseless person, he noticed that something was moving. Shos eyes opened slowly. Confused he looked now at the white ceiling.

“Sho-kun”. Aibas voice was soft and quiet. Slowly the older one turned his head to his visitor now.

“Aiba-chan … what happened?” questioning and tired eyes were now looking up to the latter. “You fainted, Sho-kun. The doctors said, that this was the effect of a mental breakdown. But don’t worry you just need some rest. Then you’ll be ok again!” Aiba tried to show one of his warmest smiles on his face. Sho only stared at him for a little while; there was no emotion shown on his face. A short nod, then he moved his head again; his gaze turning towards the ceiling.

‘What had happened? Why am I lying here? What was it?’ his thoughts began to move and suddenly his eyes went wide open.

„Ohno!“ The memories of the awful incident came back to him. With great effort he snatched up and just wanted to meddle with the drip when Aibas hands pushed him back into the cushions softly but also with some pressure.

“Sho, you aren’t allowed to get up already! Please stay in bed! Don’t be a fool!” Sho noticed the worry in the voice of the younger one, but he could only think of Ohno. He didn’t know how long he had been unconscious, maybe Arashis leader was already released from the operation room, maybe he could already go to him; his only wish was to get out of the bed and to see him again! So he still continued to lift himself up, but Aibas grip around his shoulders got stronger.

“Sho! Stop it! It’s no use! Ohno is still at the operation room!“ Only when the last sentence reached Shos ear, he let off his struggle.

“He still is…?“ his voice was broken.

“Yes. We still don’t have any news. Nino agreed to wait in front of the operation room and to inform us immediately when something happens. Jun is speaking to Ohnos manager. He thought, even though it’s late at night, he still should know about what has happened; to be able to plan all further activities. Well and you see, I’m here to keep an eye on you. So please be nice and stay in bed!” A small smile appeared on Aibas face.

„I’m sorry Aiba!“

„Stop saying sorry all the time! Everything will be alright!” Aiba always succeeded in cheering up other people, to make them smile again and Sho was very grateful fot that. For the first time of this evening there was a slight smile on the older ones face before he went back to stare on the ceiling and silence fell over them.

“Nee, Sho-kun”, Aiba finally broke the quietness that had been in the room since a few minutes with a serious sound in his voice. A single “Hm?” came as response.

„You had been there when it happened, right? And we also heard that you had been the one that did first aid, accompanied him to the hospital, waited the whole time in front of the operation room and you accepted his valuables…” Sho continued to just stare in front of him straight faced. “But.. what I also noticed… you didn’t even shed one tear!” Those words let the older one pause. Slowly he sat up and looked at his opponent with questioning eyes. “What do you mean?”

Aiba forced a slight smile on his face before he continued.

“Sho-kun, we all know that you always want to be the strong one and that you want to be there for us. But, you know, you don’t need to be like that all the time. There are moments in which you can forget your own strength and let others be strong for yourself. It’s really nice of you that you try to take away our worries by showing your strength, but in this case you should better be yourself. Please let us be the strong ones that are there for you this time. Don’t bottle up everything! We can only suspect how you must feel, but if you keep everything for yourself, it will destroy you! So please Sho-kun, let it out… you don’t need to be afraid, we are there for you!”

The long time that Aiba had spent together with the older one was worth while. By now he knew the rapper so good that he couldn’t deceive him anymore and so it was a sure thing that his words hit the bulls’ eye. No sooner than he had finished his last sentence Shos eyes got teary. He tried to fight against them, but when the younger one finally stood up from his chair, sat beside him on the bed and stroke softly over his back, he couldn’t withhold his tears anymore. Bitterly he started to cry whereon Aiba caught him in his arms tenderly, continued to softly stroke his back and repeatedly told him the words “Everything will be alright! For sure!”

Shos whole emotions seemed to explode at this moment within him. All the fears, all the worries that had been bottled up within him, finally broke out now. It was true, he had tried to be strong, to not make the other members worry any more, but he just couldn’t keep up anymore. It had to break out now and so he was really grateful that his best friend realised his sorrow at the right time.

„Aiba-chan.. I’m… so scared!“ just barely he could say those words.

„So scared … that he…! And that I cannot .. see him .. anymore… Aiba-chan, he must not go! I couldn’t even tell him… he must not.. leave me!“ His voice broke and sobbingly he strengthened his grip around Aibas shoulders like he was afraid that everything would crumble once he let go of the younger one.

Even Aiba had to gulp hardly now to hold back his tears. He blinked a few times, took a deep breath and finally stroke calmly over Shos head.

“Don’t worry, everything will be alright! Riida will make it for sure! We just have to believe in him!”

The younger one noticed that Shos head, which rested on his shoulders, nodded slightly. But tears were still falling and so Aiba continued to sit beside the older one; his arms firmly around him and his hand stroking his head and back calmly.

It must have been an eternity until Sho calmed down again. Now with red eyes he was sitting upright on the bed, wiping his nose, while Aiba sat on the chair beside him again.

“You are ok again?“ the voice of the sunnyboy was still soft.

“Yes, thank you!“ the older one replied with a short nod.

On Aibas face there was a wide grin now.

„That’s good, that’s good!! Ah that reminds me…“ He reached behind him on the little cabinet.

 “Ohnos necklace! It dropped out of your hand when you got unconscious. Maybe you should better wear it yourself so that it won’t get lost.” He handed the necklace over to Sho, who took it thankfully and according to Aibas advice he immediately put it around his neck. Then he lifted up the pendants with his fingers and observed them carefully once again. The gaze of the younger one went also to the necklace now.

“Haha, it could also be your necklace Sho-chan! You two have the same initials! S! But.. don’t you think it’s strange that someone wears his own initials around his neck?” Shos eyes kept on looking at the pendants when he replied with a serious, thoughtful sound in his voice: “Aiba-chan… I think the S doesn’t stand for Satoshi!” The eyes of the sunnyboy widened out of surprise.

“Eh? Not? But for .. Ah!“ There was no need to finish this question. Cause when looking at Arashis rapper who was still holding the pendants in his hand, the answer was right in front of his eyes.

But Aibas surprise and realization got disturbed abruptly because suddenly the door of the room got opened with a dash and it revealed a flustered Nino. Both looked at him with questioning eyes and Sho noticed that there was a strange feeling building up inside of him. He couldn’t say if it was a good or bad feeling. His eyes were staring at Ninos lips now; what was it that Nino wanted to tell them both?

‘Good or bad? Good or bad? Please let it be something good!’, those were Shos only thoughts.

“The operation .. has ended! They’ll bring Oh-chan to the intensive care unit now!” Nino had said those sentences excitedly and also with a relieved sound in his voice.

It only took a few seconds for Sho to realize the meaning behind those words. Without further thinking he grabbed the drip with his left hand and with a strong flip he removed it from his right hand.

Arashis rapper knew exacrly that this was something he wasn’t allowed to do, but right now he cared for nothing and no one. The only thing that mattered now, was to get to Ohno as fast as possible! With lightning speed he got up from bed and ran past Aiba and Nino, out of the room and along the wide floor.