147 posts tagged “arashi”

Yosh ok, my first entry about my Japan vacation. First its a little mess this time ^^;;; Forgot some things at home. Well could buy most but one was a list of stuff I wanted to buy... hope I can remember everything.

Well lannded in Tokyo at 08.40am totally on time. But had to wait a bit for my luggage. Was one of the last people to get it. But the security man was totally impressed of my XDD This was cute!

Then was lucky. Got the transfer bus immediatelly. So arrived in Ikebukuro at around 11.00am already. Too early to check in >.< So left my luggage at the hotel and did what I'm best in: shopping! Was no good idea. Spent so much again ^^;; And it's only the first day!! Well here are some pics of what I got.

Unfortunately my 2GB SD card broke >__________< So the picture of the Yatterman Buta Soba is gone. I bought it of course together with C1000 (also hoping for one of those special cards that is in every 1000 pack, but of course no luck) I also bought myself the Hai-kara karaoke machine! XDD Yatterman 2go does the CM so *gg* No no. Thats not the reason. Just needed a wacky thing and that is definetely one! Too bad that it needs batteries and a screwdriver that I don't have here.... so maybe should buy the AC adapter as well to test it out ^^;;;

Also bought 3 Arashi doujinshis. Damn it took me so long to get through to them. So many people wanted to take a look ... ah sasuga Arashi ne.

After that finally could check into my hotel. Yokatta!!! Finally was able to recharge my mobile again!! Cause somehow it was out of battery. >.< Now working again! Yeah. After a little rest of 2 hours I felt worse than before ^^;;;

But had to hurry to go meet my friend at the Tokyo International Forum where the Yatterman Japan premier will be held. And on the train Aiba-chan was watching me.

Back to International Forum: It's an nice place! Now I know where Sho-chan's car will drive and where he will come out and go inside the cinema. But not sure if I can make it to see him there ^^;; Kinda think I will lose to the Japanese fans. But at least my chances for a ticket are quite good ^^

Then we went to a Japanese style isekaya restaurant. Had mechakucha oishi dinner. Tofu, saladd, yakitori etc. We talked lots of Arashi and had just fun! She gave me my normal Yatterman cinema ticket with the strap and also Aiba-chans butai ticket.

And now I'm dead tired and will just fall in my bed! sleep sleep! Have no clue what I'm doing tomorrow ^^;;; Would like to go to JE shop.. demo then would have to wake up early >____________< No good no good. And it's Aibachans first day of his butai .. so ... ara .. will surely be crowded. Doushiyou?

On Friday I'm going to watch Heavens Door! ^____________________^

And yokatte the hotel besides my hotel is playing Yatterman .. so poster and chirashis available. Noticed too late that it's the same chirashi just the back showing ^^;;; But will be a super nice German Fanclub leader and give those out during our next fanclub meeting ^^

Jaa oyasumi!

Maou FF: For Eternity (One-shot)

Nov 5, 2008
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Well my dear beta-reader didn't complain about any mistakes, so ... I'll post the fanfic finally.
I hope minna like it ... and sorry about the banner ... for to save the photoshop file so couldn't change the title anymore >____< So only have the German banner ... gomene m(_ _)m

For Eternity (One-shot)

Pairing: Naruse x Shiori <3

Rating: G should do

genre: hmmm .. fluff

Disclaimer: Like Arashi nothing belongs to me except for the idea of the story .. demo ne~, would love to own my own Naruse-sensei ne~!! Always looking good in that suit.

Note: Well .. I kinda got that idea after remembering the ending of the book "The time travelers wife". I loved that ending and well .. kinda changed it a bit so that it goes well with the Maou flow ^.~ Hahaha and my dear beta told me .. also has a kind of TITANIC feeling XDD AND BEST IS to listen to MAOU OST while reading .. e.g. Grace, Requiem, Schlaflied ^_________^ To get the MAOU FEELING! XDD

Many, many years had passed since the tragic events that had kept Tokyos residents in suspense. By now barely one could remember the name “Amano Makoto” and all the awful happenings that this name had summoned. Most people had forgotten all this already, but there was one person that had never stopped to keep those memories in her heart.

Sakita Shiori lived her life with full strength every day and enjoyed each and every minute, however she had never forgotten the case “Amano Makoto” and all the people that were involved. Especially that one person she just couldn’t banish from her heart.

Shioris gaze fell on a picture that she was holding in her slender hand which was now taken along and wrinkled throughout the years. You could see three persons on it: Shiori was sitting at a round table of the small café, beside her was Sora-chan standing with a big smile on her face showing a victory sign into the camera and beside her, also sitting, was a young man wearing a black suit with a slight smile on his lips. One that had only been seen on extremely rare occasions.

Shioris heart ached at the thought that she had not been able to protect this smile. She had tried everything in her past; however fate had not been on her side. That tragic night she had lost him; the man that she had given her heart to and for whom she wanted to become an angel: Naruse Ryo.

When she heard that steps were coming closer to her, she turned her gaze away from the picture and looked up to the person that was now standing beside her. It was a woman with long dark hair and a friendly smile on her lips. “Sora-chan, you are still here?” Those were the surprising words that Shiori said to her. Sora-chan had grown up to a gallant woman. Although she didn’t know the real story behind Naruse Ryo, she also couldn’t really forget that man ever.

When Shioris friend had decided to stop keeping the café, it was Sora-chan that had taken over that business. She had known how much that place meant to Shiori and she herself had made so many nice memories there. Since then she carried on with that business and she never had stopped calling Shiori “Shiori-neesan”. Also Shiori still called her “Sora-chan”.

Sora took one of the chairs from the table and sat besides the rocking chair in which her older friend was seated. “Hai, I cashed up so that I don’t have to do that tomorrow morning”, she replied Shiori with a bright smile. “Are you looking at that picture of us again? It’s really a wonderful photo. It was a good thing that my mom took it on that day, wasn’t it?” Shiori nodded slightly, but Sora could see, how sadness reflected in her eyes.

“You are still missing him Shiori-neesan, right?” a slight smile rushed over Shioris face, and then she brushed one gray strand of her hair out of her face with her hand. “Nee, Sora-chan. I had a fulfilling live, hadn’t I?” Sora looked surprisingly at her. „Eh? What’s that for a question?“ Again there was a slight smile on the face of the older woman. “I’m just saying. After all, I’m not the youngest anymore, my time’s running out. I just want to be able to say that I had lived my life at the best. That I had never given up, even after losing something so precious”, gently she stroke over her the photo with her aged hand. “You did that Shiori-neesan! You gave your best!” smilingly Sora replied her. „Thank you Sora-chan! Thank you for everything!” Both women looked at each others eyes and a soft laughter leaked Soras lips.

“If you are saying it like this then it sounds almost like a goodbye! But don’t forget, I’m coming back tomorrow morning. After all someone has to attend to the shop.“ She stood up and while passing she stroke gently over the older ones arm. “We see each other tomorrow!” Shiori nodded slightly, heard how the steps of the younger one moved away, how the door opened and the small bell rang when it closed again. Now she was all alone in the small building. Carefully she stood up from her rocking chair, put the photo on the table in front of her and walked some heavy steps towards the opposite commode. In the first drawer there was a medium-sized box, which Shiori hadn’t held in her hand, not to mention opened for many years already.

But today she wanted to take a look at it again. Therefore she lifted the box up and went back to her rocking chair. With slightly shaking hands she removed the lid and put it aside. Her gaze turned towards the content: a kid’s book, a flyer for a firework, a casket, a letter, a harmonica and tarot cards. She eyed everything accurately. How many years had past since she had seen all those things the last time? She couldn’t remember anymore, but even now, after all those years, each and every item still meant so much to her. She noticed how her heart began to beat faster instinctively and how her memories flushed through her mind. How she had met Sora for the first time, how they had sat together in the café a little later and Naruse had read from the book, how she had gotten the flyer from her friend abd stood in front of him with wild beating heart asking him if they could go there together.

How she had waited for him and almost lost the hope that he would come. But then, he had come after all. Much too late, but that hadn’t mattered cause what mattered was that he had come for her and they had spent the most beautiful evening together doing fireworks.

But she also remembered the pain that followed afterwards, when he had told her that this was the last time they had met and how the truth had come to light thereupon. The painful truth about the real identity of this man. But despite everything Shiori had known that he hadn’t been as cruel as everyone had thought; he had also had a really friendly, gentle, kind-hearted side and when she had held the letter in her hands and read it, she had known that she had to save this man no matter what! On his and her behalf!

Even today her heart ached when thinking about how everything had ended. What she had seen on that nigh and what had broken her heart. She had not been able to save him; he was gone and had taken her heart with him. Even though she had continued to live a happy life, she hadn’t been able to give her heart to someone else, as she had already given her heart to him.

Slowly she reached for the pretty wooden casket and opened it. A song that she knew very well started to play: “Over the rainbow” – her favorite song. Quietly she hummed the song a little bit, but then she put the casket on the table in front of her, however she let the lid open so that the beautiful melody kept playing.

The next item that she took in her hands was her old tarot cards. It has been a while since the last time she had laid them. Slowly she began to shuffle them. After some rounds she finally drew a covert card from the middle and laid the rest aside. She took a deep breath and closed her eyes before she flipped the card slowly over in her hand. When she opened her eyes again, she stared surprised at the motive.

She had expected everything, but not this one. Of course she knew the meaning of this card but she was unable to make head or tail of what could really be behind it. Although it confused her, there was a slight, almost happy sparkling in her eyes.

But that was disappearing all of a sudden, when she heard steps behind her; steps that approached her. “Sora-chan? Did you forget anything? I haven’t heard how you…“. While she was speaking, she turned around to the direction of the visitor, but what she saw, left her speechless. “Hisashiburi* Shiori-san!” Her gaze fell on the face of a smiling man with beautiful eyes, full lips and black shining hair. He was wearing a noble looking suit and although Shioris eyesight wasn’t the best anymore, she immediately knew who was standing only a few steps away from her in the small café. For a short while her heart almost stopped beating and the sight took her breath away.

“Na- Naruse-san?” disbelieving came the name over her lips. She had to wink a few times until she registered that this wasn’t a dream. Her pulse began to beat faster and her grip around the tarot card, which she still hold in her hands, became firmer.

All these years she had to live her live without her beloved, all these years had made her grown old, all these years there hadn’t been t a day she could forget that special person, all these years she had wished profoundly to see him again. And now, on this rainy day, suddenly he stood in front of her. He hadn’t changed a bit; he still looked like the Naruse that Shiori remembered. Like how he looked on the faded photo. But the sadness, the despair, the anger and the hate that had been hidden within him in the past was gone.

“What … why .. are you here?” echoed her voice tremblingly in the room. “I came because of you.” His voice was music in her ears. Could he only speak to her eternally. „I wanted to see you again!“

Shiori couldn’t withhold a soft laughter. “This could have been my sentence. How I had wished to see you again for all these years. All these years I had hoped that there was a way to be by your side again…. But as much as I had hoped and prayed, you didn’t come back. You hadn’t come to get me.“ The young man noticed the sad smile that was now appearing on her lips.

“I hadn’t wanted that you throw away your life. You should enjoy your life, savour it completely and I know you did that. Not like me. There were hard times, but there were also really nice times, right?” Shiori had to smile. Yes, he was right. Despite everything she had lived a beautiful life.

“But now…” he paused for a brief moment and stared at the floor as if he first had to collect himself. When he looked up again, Shiori could see uncertainty in his eyes. She remembered their time together in the past. There had also been many moments in which he had looked at her like this. Mostly he had ran away then, but today she noticed that something had changed in the look of the man.

The uncertainty changed to determination. “Shiori-san, I know it’s been a long time, but… do you still want to be my angel?” Her eyes widened out of surprise and it seemed like time had stopped. This was exactly what she had wished for all these years and what still hadn’t changed even now. There was a feeling of freedom spreading within her after hearing those words; a big burden vanished from her soul, because finally, finally after all this time it seemed like her biggest wish was coming true.

Shiori wasn’t replying. Instead she stood up and rushed over to Naruse to finally put her arms around his neck and embrace him dearly. Tears were running down her cheeks, but those were tears out of happiness.

With one hand the lawyer stroke gently over her head, while he wrapped the other one around her body tightly to give her a squeeze. He never wanted to leave her alone anymore. “Finally! I have missed you so much! I will be your angel. For ever and ever!“. Just now when hearing her light sounding voice, she noticed that she had changed back to her young self. The wrinkles and the crumpled skin was gone; she was now looking like her old self from the past when she had met Naruse for the first time.

Slowly they parted from their embrace and looked at each other’s eyes deeply. The lawyer raised his hand carefully and stroked away the last tear of Shiori’s cheek with his thumb. He let his hand rest on the soft skin and noticed how it turned slightly pink and how Shiori looked at him shyly and unsure suddenly. Normally this was also a moment for him to feel unsure, but no, this time he finally wanted to take the step which he already wanted to take years ago, but couldn’t as he strayed from the right path.

Gently he held her head while his face slowly bent down to her. When her faces were only a few centimetres apart from each other, Shiori closed her eyes. Smoothly she felt his tender lips on hers. Heat flushed through her body and her heart began to beat faster. She felt like during that one night when they both had lid the fireworks. Free from everything, only her fast beating heart and the warmth of the man, whom she had given her heart for all time.

Tightly his arms embraced her body and squeezed her. And she also put her arms around him, dug her head deep in his shoulder and inhaled his scent. Never again they wanted to let go of the other.

It was early in the morning, when Sora-chan came back to the small cafe. She was surprised to find Shiori still sitting in the racking chair while the melody of the casket was still playing.

Slowly she went over to her friend. “Shiori-neesan! Have you slept here all night long? You should have better gone to your bed!” But when she put her hand on the shoulder of the supposed sleeping woman, her eyes widened out of shock. “Shiori… neesan?” There was no reply. Suddenly her gaze went to something that Shiori was holding in her hand. With shaking hands she lifted it up and looked at it. It was a tarot card.

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“The Lovers” could be seen on the front and when she flipped the card over she noticed that someone had handwritten something on the back:

“Together for all eternity”

Tears were running down her cheeks, but there was also a slight smile appearing on her face.

Shiori had found her peace … at the side of her lover.

* Hisashiburi = it has been a while

The most important... never let it go! Chapter 5

Sep 19, 2008
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Finally finally ... here it is .. the long awaited chapter 5! Which is NOT the last chapter noooo .. I lied XDDD

But I really wanted to end it with chapter 5, demo I just have too many ideas and so I'm writing too much *LOL* So I decided to forget the idea with 5 chapters .. hahaha .. there will be more. Still hope chapter 6 will be the last but ... as I don't know .. I keep my mouth shut now XDD Will just tell you when I post the real last chapter XDD So have fun with the next chapter!

And as always: COMMENTS are <3333333

CHAPTER 5

Aiba Masaki sat, his hands rubbing nervously, at the side of the hospital bed in which Sho was lying, still unconscious. Except for the faint dropping of the drip which was connected with the right hand of the rapper, there was silence in the room. Aiba felt awkward, helpless and worried. Every few seconds his look went from Shos face up to the clock hanging on the wall, then over to the big window, where he could spot the distant blinking of the skyscraper and the patter of the raindrops.

He felt how tiredness came slowly over him, but his feelings were too much in an uproar, that he just couldn’t think about sleep. And he had a task to fulfil now after all: to stay at Shos side and to be there for him.

Aiba could only partly imagine how the older one must feel. To see, how Leader got hit by a car, then to fear for his life, to learn that he had feelings for him and that he might also reciprocated them. What a terrible pain must that all cause? He just couldn’t imagine. He only knew that he wanted to help Sho to get through that terrible time.

When his gaze went back to the face of the senseless person, he noticed that something was moving. Shos eyes opened slowly. Confused he looked now at the white ceiling.

“Sho-kun”. Aibas voice was soft and quiet. Slowly the older one turned his head to his visitor now.

“Aiba-chan … what happened?” questioning and tired eyes were now looking up to the latter. “You fainted, Sho-kun. The doctors said, that this was the effect of a mental breakdown. But don’t worry you just need some rest. Then you’ll be ok again!” Aiba tried to show one of his warmest smiles on his face. Sho only stared at him for a little while; there was no emotion shown on his face. A short nod, then he moved his head again; his gaze turning towards the ceiling.

‘What had happened? Why am I lying here? What was it?’ his thoughts began to move and suddenly his eyes went wide open.

„Ohno!“ The memories of the awful incident came back to him. With great effort he snatched up and just wanted to meddle with the drip when Aibas hands pushed him back into the cushions softly but also with some pressure.

“Sho, you aren’t allowed to get up already! Please stay in bed! Don’t be a fool!” Sho noticed the worry in the voice of the younger one, but he could only think of Ohno. He didn’t know how long he had been unconscious, maybe Arashis leader was already released from the operation room, maybe he could already go to him; his only wish was to get out of the bed and to see him again! So he still continued to lift himself up, but Aibas grip around his shoulders got stronger.

“Sho! Stop it! It’s no use! Ohno is still at the operation room!“ Only when the last sentence reached Shos ear, he let off his struggle.

“He still is…?“ his voice was broken.

“Yes. We still don’t have any news. Nino agreed to wait in front of the operation room and to inform us immediately when something happens. Jun is speaking to Ohnos manager. He thought, even though it’s late at night, he still should know about what has happened; to be able to plan all further activities. Well and you see, I’m here to keep an eye on you. So please be nice and stay in bed!” A small smile appeared on Aibas face.

„I’m sorry Aiba!“

„Stop saying sorry all the time! Everything will be alright!” Aiba always succeeded in cheering up other people, to make them smile again and Sho was very grateful fot that. For the first time of this evening there was a slight smile on the older ones face before he went back to stare on the ceiling and silence fell over them.

“Nee, Sho-kun”, Aiba finally broke the quietness that had been in the room since a few minutes with a serious sound in his voice. A single “Hm?” came as response.

„You had been there when it happened, right? And we also heard that you had been the one that did first aid, accompanied him to the hospital, waited the whole time in front of the operation room and you accepted his valuables…” Sho continued to just stare in front of him straight faced. “But.. what I also noticed… you didn’t even shed one tear!” Those words let the older one pause. Slowly he sat up and looked at his opponent with questioning eyes. “What do you mean?”

Aiba forced a slight smile on his face before he continued.

“Sho-kun, we all know that you always want to be the strong one and that you want to be there for us. But, you know, you don’t need to be like that all the time. There are moments in which you can forget your own strength and let others be strong for yourself. It’s really nice of you that you try to take away our worries by showing your strength, but in this case you should better be yourself. Please let us be the strong ones that are there for you this time. Don’t bottle up everything! We can only suspect how you must feel, but if you keep everything for yourself, it will destroy you! So please Sho-kun, let it out… you don’t need to be afraid, we are there for you!”

The long time that Aiba had spent together with the older one was worth while. By now he knew the rapper so good that he couldn’t deceive him anymore and so it was a sure thing that his words hit the bulls’ eye. No sooner than he had finished his last sentence Shos eyes got teary. He tried to fight against them, but when the younger one finally stood up from his chair, sat beside him on the bed and stroke softly over his back, he couldn’t withhold his tears anymore. Bitterly he started to cry whereon Aiba caught him in his arms tenderly, continued to softly stroke his back and repeatedly told him the words “Everything will be alright! For sure!”

Shos whole emotions seemed to explode at this moment within him. All the fears, all the worries that had been bottled up within him, finally broke out now. It was true, he had tried to be strong, to not make the other members worry any more, but he just couldn’t keep up anymore. It had to break out now and so he was really grateful that his best friend realised his sorrow at the right time.

„Aiba-chan.. I’m… so scared!“ just barely he could say those words.

„So scared … that he…! And that I cannot .. see him .. anymore… Aiba-chan, he must not go! I couldn’t even tell him… he must not.. leave me!“ His voice broke and sobbingly he strengthened his grip around Aibas shoulders like he was afraid that everything would crumble once he let go of the younger one.

Even Aiba had to gulp hardly now to hold back his tears. He blinked a few times, took a deep breath and finally stroke calmly over Shos head.

“Don’t worry, everything will be alright! Riida will make it for sure! We just have to believe in him!”

The younger one noticed that Shos head, which rested on his shoulders, nodded slightly. But tears were still falling and so Aiba continued to sit beside the older one; his arms firmly around him and his hand stroking his head and back calmly.

It must have been an eternity until Sho calmed down again. Now with red eyes he was sitting upright on the bed, wiping his nose, while Aiba sat on the chair beside him again.

“You are ok again?“ the voice of the sunnyboy was still soft.

“Yes, thank you!“ the older one replied with a short nod.

On Aibas face there was a wide grin now.

„That’s good, that’s good!! Ah that reminds me…“ He reached behind him on the little cabinet.

“Ohnos necklace! It dropped out of your hand when you got unconscious. Maybe you should better wear it yourself so that it won’t get lost.” He handed the necklace over to Sho, who took it thankfully and according to Aibas advice he immediately put it around his neck. Then he lifted up the pendants with his fingers and observed them carefully once again. The gaze of the younger one went also to the necklace now.

“Haha, it could also be your necklace Sho-chan! You two have the same initials! S! But.. don’t you think it’s strange that someone wears his own initials around his neck?” Shos eyes kept on looking at the pendants when he replied with a serious, thoughtful sound in his voice: “Aiba-chan… I think the S doesn’t stand for Satoshi!” The eyes of the sunnyboy widened out of surprise.

“Eh? Not? But for .. Ah!“ There was no need to finish this question. Cause when looking at Arashis rapper who was still holding the pendants in his hand, the answer was right in front of his eyes.

But Aibas surprise and realization got disturbed abruptly because suddenly the door of the room got opened with a dash and it revealed a flustered Nino. Both looked at him with questioning eyes and Sho noticed that there was a strange feeling building up inside of him. He couldn’t say if it was a good or bad feeling. His eyes were staring at Ninos lips now; what was it that Nino wanted to tell them both?

‘Good or bad? Good or bad? Please let it be something good!’, those were Shos only thoughts.

“The operation .. has ended! They’ll bring Oh-chan to the intensive care unit now!” Nino had said those sentences excitedly and also with a relieved sound in his voice.

It only took a few seconds for Sho to realize the meaning behind those words. Without further thinking he grabbed the drip with his left hand and with a strong flip he removed it from his right hand.

Arashis rapper knew exacrly that this was something he wasn’t allowed to do, but right now he cared for nothing and no one. The only thing that mattered now, was to get to Ohno as fast as possible! With lightning speed he got up from bed and ran past Aiba and Nino, out of the room and along the wide floor.

English: The most important ... never let it go! Chapter 4

Aug 24, 2008
21 comments

I have made you wait .. gomene for that m(_ _)m But here is the 4th chapter finally!!! It would be more than love if you could leave me a comment cause I had really problems writing that chapter. >.<

So and hahaha ... again I changed my mind ... I will be writing 5 chapters and an epilogue .. so happy happy 2 more chapters to come ^.~

Hope you like it!!!!

CHAPTER 4

In disbelief Sho turned the pages of the small notebook up and down. Again and again, as if he had to assure himself, that the drawings which he saw, were really there and that it wasn’t just his imagination. But no matter how often he opened and closed the book, the pictures remained on the same spot.

He rubbed his eyes with his left hand and after that he ran his fingers trough his hair. What was the meaning of this? Ohno had made those paintings secretly… those were moments in which Sho hadn’t paid any attention to the older one. But during those times there had always been the feeling, that someone was watching him. Even though he often had seen how Ohno was drawing during rehearsal and filming, the thought that those pictures might be of him had never struck his mind. Why of all things had Riida painted him?

Even though the truth was so near, his mind struggled to accept it. He was searching for all kinds of explanations. Maybe this was his birthday present? Well there were still some months till then, but drawing took a lot of time. Or maybe it was a new topic for Ohnos potential second exhibition: a corner with drawings of his band mates? Perhaps he had also drawn the other members already?

While he continued to flip through the notebook and to frantically think about explanations that might make sense, he noticed how steps came hectically nearer to him. They became louder so that they forced him to finally let off the book and look up. He caught sight of Jun, Nino and Aiba, who were rushing over to him. When they were almost at his side, he laid aside the notebook and stood up.

You could see the anxiety and the sadness on their faces and even on Aibas face was no smile to be found on this evening, although he was normally known as the sunny boy. Instead teary eyes were looking at Sho, which gave away that Aiba surely had been crying not long ago.

“Well? How is he? Do you already know something?” the words out of Juns mouth sounded sorrowful and harassed and they brought Sho back to reality. The notebook and the drawings inside had made him forget about the awful incident for a little while. But now everything crackled upon him again and the sorrow was so strong that his inside was aching so much. He couldn’t find any words and so he only could shake his head slowly as a reply. “So he still is in the operation room…” Jun mumbled more to himself than to the others. There was a nightmarish mood on the aisle now. Aiba just stared on the floor in front of him and was fighting against his tears, Jun was deep in thoughts and Nino also had to fight with himself mentally to stay calm.

“Where are … Ohnos parents?” Sho asked finally and broke the brief silence. “Ah right, I got them on the phone indeed, but they are on vacation out-of-town right now. They try to come as fast as possible, however it can take a while till they arrive.” Jun made a little break. “Ah damn it! Why did that have to happen?!... I only can hope, that a doctor arrives here soon ... who can tell us about his condition… otherwise I’ll surely go crazy!” Although the youngest member had hardly tried to keep cool, his feelings somehow took overhand now, and that made Sho feel the pain inside him once again. He had to gulp hardly and in the end he just had to do something: he bowed very low in front of his band mates.

“I’m sorry! It’s all my fault ... just because of me he got hit by the car ... I’m really so so sorry!” It was an awful sight to see Arashis rapper like this.

“Sho-chan!” there was only a loud sniffle to hear from Aiba, but Jun however rushed over to Sho immediately, grabbed the older ones shoulder and tried to push him up again. “Don’t talk non-sense! It’s surely not your fault! Just stop thinking something like that!” It took some seconds till Sho recollected his courage to stand up straight again. When his gaze fell on Juns face, he could see a slightly encouraging smile. Except for Aibas sniffling there was this nightmarish silence again.

But then Jun could see out of the corner of his eyes how Nino, who had been silent and just standing stiffly beside him the whole time, pulled something out of his pocket: his ice-blue Nintendo DS. Just a few seconds and anger covered the face of the youngest and with furious knitted eyebrows he turned towards the game freak. “Nino, you are not serious, are you? Do you really intend to play with your DS right now in this situation?!” The older one only shrugged slightly with his shoulder.

“Why not? We cannot do anything else than wait here anyway. Therefore I can also spend my time to continue with my game. Moreover, you guys don’t really know how I feel right now! If I continue to just stand here and do nothing, then I surely will go crazy because of worrying and thinking too much! So please, let me play my game, otherwise I don’t know what will happen!” The other three understood what Nino meant and so he didn’t get any objections just a short approving nod.

Nino went over to the chairs which were situated at the wall. Just as he wanted to nestle there with his DS, his gaze fell on Ohnos notebook, which Sho had left there.

“Ah, Ohchans notebook!” surprised the other three members turned their heads to him. “What? What is that?” for a short while Aibas sadness was gone and now he was looking curiously across Shos shoulder.

“Ohno had it with him. A nurse gave it to me together with his necklace.” For a moment Sho opened his right hand, in which the necklace was situated, to show it to the others, but as soon as possible he enclosed it again.

“Nee, Sho-kun. Did you take a look at the notebook?” besides the notable curiosity there was something else in Ninos voice. An undertone, which sounded like the game freak would know something that the other members didn’t know yet.

“Yes, I did. Why are you asking?” Sho looked at him warily.

“Did you not ask yourself why there are so many drawings of yourself?” as soon as those words were outspoken, the eyes of the other three members widened in surprise. For Aiba and Jun it was because they didn’t know anything about those drawings at all and Sho was surprised because Nino knew about them although he had not taken a look inside of it since they arrived at the hospital.

“How .. how come that you know about that?” Sho asked with a shaking voice.

“Actually I had promised Ohno, that I would not tell anybody about it, but I think in this situation there is no other way…”

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Flashback

It has been some time ago during a concert rehearsal. After they had to undergo the tough training for their dance steps, the eagerly awaited break came. This time all five members had their own room. However the boys of course couldn’t just stay by themselves and so it was no wonder that for example Aiba could be found sweets eating beside the newspaper reading Sho in the older ones room. Nino enjoyed the peace in his own room, but somehow… something was missing. So he took his Nintendo and set off to visit his favourite Arashi member.

The door to Ohnos room was wide open. Nino saw that the older one was sitting deep in thought on the sofa; his back turned to him. A thought struck the game freaks mind: He wanted to have some fun by scaring the other one. And so he tiptoed over to the sofa. Slowly he approached, but in the moment he wanted to fulfil his act, his gaze fell on the notebook which Ohno held in his hands. No, rather on the drawing which the older one made right now. Ninos actual intention was now completely forgotten, instead he watched how Riida let the pencil run over the paper on which the face of Sho surfaced more and more detailed. His gaze wandered to Ohnos face and there he saw something that he never had seen before. While Riidas eyes were fixed on the paper, they reflected so much warmth and radiance! It seemed to him like the older one would look at the drawing like a pair of lovers would look at each other. Somehow this realization let him shiver and so he just had to raise his voice.

“Oh-chan, what are you doing?” Nino noticed how Riida winced out of shock, because he hadn’t heard him come and also how he tried to shut the book as soon as possible. Incredibly nervous the older one turned to him.

“You … you have scared me! I didn’t hear you come!! Since when are you standing there?!” His eyes widened out of shock, when he heard Ninos answer: “Long enough to see that you just painted Sho. And you did that with such a lovey-dovey look on your face!” He had to laugh saying his last sentence, which he had said more out of fun. But his laugh got stuck in his throat when he saw that Ohno completely froze. The face of the older one had suddenly lost all of its colour and finally Nino realised that he had hit the bulls eye.

„Eeeehhh? You really fell in…” his voice echoed louder than he had expected, but his sentence got cut because of a hand which pressed hard against his lips.

“Nino you must not reveal that to anybody, ok?! No one should ever know about that! This has to be a secret, got that?” Ohno stared at him with a piercing look and Nino knew immediately that his counterpart was deadly serious.

„Eh, but does Sho know about it? Or will you tell him?” Nino noticed how the serious look vanished from Riidas face. Instead tired and sad eyes were now gazing at him. The older one slowly turned away and sat down on the sofa again. For a little while there was silence, but then Ohno raised his voice again.

“No, he doesn’t know and I cannot tell him.”

“But why?”

“Because it would only cause problems! I doubt that Sho feels the same way as me … maybe saying it would also even destroy our great solidarity within the group. If I say it, I could destroy everything! I’m the leader, I have to keep the group together. Therefore… please don’t tell anyone!” His gaze was serious and determined, but Nino could also see sadness and pain in those eyes.

It hurt him to see the older one like that; fighting against his feelings and his task as leader at the same time.

“But Ohchan, if you don’t tell him, then maybe you will forever…” he couldn’t finish his sentence as Ohno interrupted him:

“I’m alright. Drawing helps me; I can put all my feelings in it. Therefore… as long as I can transfer my feelings on the paper, I will be ok.” While saying that he started to turn the pages of the notebook and Nino saw that unbelievable warm expression on his face again, that the older one never showed to anybody else.

The younger one had to gulp hardly. He never would have guessed how Ohno had to fight against himself and his feelings day after day. He could hardly imagine how tough all that must be.

“Ohchan… if there are times you cannot go on… I’m there for you, ne?!” Riida looked up to him and a warm smile appeared on his face.

“Arigatou!”

End of Flashback

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„So these drawings really mean a lot to Ohchan. They show his true feelings. Sho, you almost caught him this morning! Because during that time he worked on a picture of you again. But he saw you coming and so he hided the notebook in time. He told me about it later. And when I came back to the dressing room after filming, I knew that I had to do something! It was because I had watched you for a while and I noticed that something had changed; something that looked like hope for Ohno. So that was why I hided your mobile and let it appear again when you had already left. I turned to Ohchan and told him to bring it to you because you would surely search for it. I also comforted him that he should finally tell you about his feelings. He wanted to duck out again, but I insisted that he should talk to you about it. The last thing I heard from him with a smile on his face was ‘Ok, I bring him the mobile, but the other thing … I think about it’. I don’t really know what happened today, however I think, this time for sure, he wanted to try. He wanted to tell you about his feelings towards you tonight…”

The last words only penetrated to his ear bluntly. A cold shiver ran down his back and an invisible hand squeezed his throat. ‘Ohno wanted to tell me about his feelings ... tonight, while I and Michiru…. If I hadn’t kissed her then…!“

Suddenly it was difficult for him to breathe; all his strength vanished from his limbs and the view in front of him slowly began to blur.

He wanted to grab Aibas shoulder to find hold and lean onto it, but he was too weak. His knees softened, he realised how his body slumped to the ground, heard how Aiba screamed out terrified, but then darkness and silence came over him.

German: The most important ... never let it go! Kapitel 4

Aug 20, 2008
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Hai haaaaaaaaaii .. after long I finally decided to post the 4th GERMAN chapter of my fanfic.

GOMENE minna .. I think this is not really a great chapter .... had real problems with writing and my feelings at that time and wasn't able to change the fic afterwards anymore. So .. I really hope it's not as bad as I think it is ^^;;;;

Decided that I will write 5 chapters .. so ... there will be one more + epilogue. I will give my best for those 2 chapters .. so that they will be much better again ^.~

Please head over to the German Arashi forum to read my German chapter:

http://arashi.forumup.com/viewtopic.php?t=210&mforum=arashi

Will translate the chapter into English as soon as possible ^.^

English: The most important ... never let it go! CHAPTER 3

Aug 7, 2008
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You waited long .. but here it is finally!!!! And longer than the chapters before .. and with even some pictures and nice new banner ^.~ Hahahaha I hope minna won't get mad at me what I do to our boys .. everything is just for the drama neeeee~!!!! So well now I can start to write chapter 4 .. the planned last chapter .. but there is an epilogue coming afterwards ne... but unfortunately won't have time this weekend. My Arashi friend will visit me this weekend .. and we'll do loooooooooooots of fangirl stuff... so no time to continue writing .. but after that I'll promise I'll give my best to present you the final chapter soon!!!

Jaaaaa now ... here comes chapter 3 (And I'm going off to watch TRUTH PV NOW *nyahahahhahahahaa*):

Desperation was the only thing that Sho felt at the moment. Pure desperation which took away all of his strength and made him unable to do anything else than to stare at the spot where Ohno was still lying motionless.Just now he had spoken to him and now…
While Sho was still in a state of shock the driver of the car managed to get out of his vehicle. In Panic he ran to Ohno, then back to his car to search for his mobile phone in his bag. His fingers were shaking when he dialed the 911 and with a frantic voice he finally called for an ambulance.

The sky of Tokyo was all cloudy by now; from a distance you could hear a faint grumble. Shos eyes were still staring at Arashis Leader. But as the first raindrop fell down on his hand, he finally was freed out of his state of shock. Shortly he looked down at the small water drop.

‚The first rule when an accident happens: keep calm’. The words of his driving instructor during the first aid course suddenly echoed in his head. He closed his eyes and took one/two deep breaths till his pulse calmed down again. At last he jumped up, ran as fast as he could to Ohno and kneeled down besides him. The first thing that he caught side of was a big gash on the abdomen of the elder one which bled briskly.

‘I have to stop the bleeding!‘ As soon as that thought came to his mind, he already took off his jacket and pressed it as strong as he could on the wound. In the meanwhile the driver had finished the emergency call and rushed over to Sho.
“Oh god, oh god, I’m so sorry I couldn’t .. anymore…”
“How long will it take for the ambulance to arrive?!” Shos eyes flashed at him. “Around … 20 minutes .. they said“, answered the man falteringly.
‘So long!’ Sho looked worriedly at Riida whose condition worsened more and more, because his wound just didn’t want to stop bleeding. Sweat was Ohnos his forehead, he groaned and cramped more often now because of his pain. ‚If the ambulance don’t arrive soon then…’
„You! Press this as strong as you can on the wound please! The bleeding has to be stopped! Can you please do that?” First the man was looking at him in surprise, but after a few seconds he kneeled down and took over that task. Sho however turned to Riidas face now. He bent over him and checked his breathing. “Too weak!” those words came over his lips with deep anxiety. Shocked the driver looked up to him. “Will he make it until the ambulance arrives?” Sho didn’t really know an answer to that question, but still the words “I won’t let him die here!” came over his lips decisively. While he carefully bent Ohnos head a little bit he caught himself stroking gently over the elder ones cheek with his thumb. ‘It’s so soft and… no, there is no time for that!’ He opened Riidas mouth a bit and moved his head closer to the elder ones. But then for a short moment he stopped. The sight of Ohnos lips and the thought that he will touch them now with his own made his heart beat faster. However he wasn’t allowed to think about that, as the elder one was still fighting for his life. Slowly and carefully Sho placed his lips on Ohnos. ‘They are as soft as I had imagined’, was the thought that popped up in his mind automatically and his heart began to beat wildly. He knew himself that this was absurd in such a moment, but he just couldn’t do anything against it. His heart was just showing him once again how much he felt for the person whose life he tried to save right now.

When he finally let his breath into the mouth of the other, he noticed how Ohnos body shivered under him. However those shivers were not because of Sho, but because of the pain that shot through the body of the elder one. Sho knew, he wasn’t allowed to stop with the mouth-to-mouth-resuscitation anymore; he had to continue until the ambulance arrives, otherwise not only Riidas breathing would stop but also his heartbeat. If he could only give Oh-chan a bit of his wild beating heart…

Shos relief was boundless when finally the ambulance arrived with siren wailing and blue light flashing. Two emergency doctors came running to them with a litter and doctor’s cases. Only when the doctors where kneeling down to the injured one, the younger Arashi member let up on Ohno. Worried he watched them how they took care of Riida, how they did emergency treating and finally put him carefully on the litter to bring him to the ambulance. Sho ran besides them and asked if he was allowed to drive with them to the hospital. “You are a relative right? Ok fine, but please sit at the front!” was the hasty answer from one of the doctors while they stowed the litter in the car. Sho wasn’t really happy about the fact that he wasn’t able to sit besides Ohno at the back of the ambulance but at least he was able to come with them to the hospital. He took a last worried peek at Ohno, then he hurried to the passenger seat and the ambulance took off with loud siren wailing.

The drive seemed like an eternity for Sho. He was holding his hands tightly and just stared out of the window. The sky was now enlightened with dazzling thunderbolts and loud grumbling thunders were echoing through the streets. The rain had been getting worse and pattered against the car.
‘The sky is crying’ that was Shos thought at the sight of the many water drops that were hitting against the window. He tightened the grip of his hands until his knuckles were shining white under his skin.

As soon as the car had stopped in front of the hospital, Sho jumped out and hurried to the back to be at Ohnos side again. The doctors discharged the litter out of the vehicle and Sho reached for Riidas hand. It almost broke his heart when he noticed how cold and lifeless it had become by this time. A couple of hours ago that hand was still drawing the most beautiful pictures and now…
His concern grew again to a considerable degree and he swore himself that he would hold on to Ohnos hand as long as he could! They hurried down the long wide corridors now, the doctors called out instructions to some nurses that then also began to move. However Shos eyes were fixed on Ohno, whose face had frightfully lost its colour.
„Ohno-kun! Listen, you have to hang on! You have to keep up! You just have to hang on, did you hear me?!” He noticed the despair that was reflecting in his own voice. Finally the operating room appeared in front of them. One of the nurses came to Sho and touched his arm to hinder him going any further. He realized how Ohnos hand slithered from his own. He didn’t want to let go, but there was no other way. The only thing that he could do was looking after the doctors that vanished into the operation room.

With a soft and calming voice, the nurse turned now towards him. “I’m really sorry, but you have to wait here now. Only the doctors are allowed to go into the operation room. But please don’t worry; the doctors will give their best to save your friend. Please trust them!” Sho could only nod shortly while his eyes were still staring at the door of the operation room. He noticed that the nurse was rummaging around her coat and after that she was holding out a moist cloth towards him. Slowly his gaze wandered to her smiling face. “Here, for your hands.”
The sudden feeling of sickness overcame him, when he looked down on his hands, which were dyed red from Ohnos blood and they began to shiver on their own at this moment. However the nurse noticed it immediately. She took his elbow and directed him slowly to the seats which were situated at the back. Hesitantly he sat down, but he couldn’t stop staring at the red of his hands. Tenderly the nurse took his right hand and wiped it with the cloths. The same she did with his left hand and soon all the signs of blood was gone. “Are you feeling better now?” she asked with a smile on her face. Sho took a deep breath and nodded at last. “Thank you very much.” A tired smile flashed over his face. “I wanted to give you this here. Those are your friend’s belongings. Don’t worry, I only give them to you so that they won’t get lost. Because your friend surely wants to get them back.” Her face radiated so much kindness. She gave him the little pouch, which he accepted thankfully.
“I have to go back to my ward now, please don’t worry too much. Your friend is in good hands!” Gently she stroked his upper arm before she turned around and left.

Now Sho was all alone at the corridor, in front of the big door where the red operation sign was shining above.
‘No, I cannot sit here all alone! Otherwise I’m going crazy! I have to call the others … and Ohnos family also!’
Now he felt a lump in his throat. Hesitantly he took out his mobile to make his first call.
“Yes hello?“ he heard the sleepy voice of Jun. Sho knew, he first should have called Ohnos mother, but the thought that he had to tell her that because of him her son was… no he couldn’t summon the courage to do so. If there was someone that could keep a cool head and knew what had to be done then it was Jun; Sho was sure about that.
“Jun? Here Sho…” he couldn’t hide the shiver in his voice. And of course Jun knew exactly that something wasn’t right. “What happened?” he asked worriedly and much more awake than before.
“Ohno-kun… there was an accident… he is… can you please tell the others about it?... and please come to the hospital in Shibuya.” He barely managed to say those sentences.
It took a while till Jun rose his voice again. “Ok, I’ll tell them and Ohnos family also.” There was a short break. “Sho, how bad is it?” Arashis rapper could hear the concern in the other ones voice and this gave him a lump in his throat. “I… I don’t know.” Cruelly the words came over his lips and again there was silence. “I understand. We’ll come as fast as we can!” and with that Jun hang up.

Sho was relieved that he didn’t have to confront Ohnos family for the time being and that Jun would take over that task. Slowly he put his mobile phone back in his pocket and looked up at door of the operation room. The sign above was still shining warningly red. It was quiet. Too quiet.
He noticed how his thoughts wanted to run off the track again. But then he realized that he was still holding that little pouch with Ohnos belonging in his hands which he got from the nurse. Carefully he opened it and emptied the contents on his lap. A notebook and a necklace turned up: Ohnos necklace with the silver “S” pendant. It was Ohnos rarest jewel. He always wore it; even during photo-shootings he always had it around his neck. Sho took it with his left hand and embraced it as strong as he could. He would hold on to this necklace untill he could give it back to the older one.
Sadness overcame him once again, but he was relieved that no tears turned up.
His gaze wandered to the small notebook now. Sho lifted it up and opened the first page. There was one of those typical comic strips which Ohno had always drawn. Seeing those made him smile for a while. On the next few pages the comic strip continued and Sho was reading it interestingly. But then it suddenly stopped; the next few pages were blank. Had Ohno not been able to finish it? He turned over; still some more blank pages, but then he stopped. At the back there were some new drawings which made him freeze. In disbelieve and with an aching heart he looked at one drawing after the other. There were five, ten, fifteen; there were so many and all had the same motive:

New TV appearances

Aug 7, 2008
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8/9(土)	15:00 - 15:55	NEWS ZEROスピンオフ世界が認めたクールジャパン村上隆チャリTシャツ物語（日本テレビ）	―	櫻井翔
8/13(水)	19:00 - 19:58	1億人の大質問!?笑ってコラえて！（日本テレビ系）	バラエティ	二宮和也
8/15(金)	20:00 - 20:54	ミュージックステーション（テレビ朝日系）	音楽	嵐

from JE net.

But eeeeeeeeeeeeeehhhh??? 8/15 Music Station??? Does Sho-chan has to come back from Beijing then?? Or has it been filmed in advance?? Or maybe they'll perform without him?? o.O *puzzled about that perfomance yo* XDDD